When I was in love, I often convince myself that the particular man is ''The One''.
But well, when time passed I realized that this isn't the case, or in hindsight I might try
to convince myself again that he is.
However, I guess the definition of being ''The One'' is pretty much over-rated yea?
I met my boyfriend at a party. Or, I should say, he saw me and thought I'm cute and leapt on me?
Well, not long after we found ourselves hanging out together for our first date at the concert,
and then out in clubs, away from everyone else, kissing and dancing and feeling so much in love
with each other.
Admittedly, it's like chemistry calls as I can feel the butterflies in my tummy and that
drug like kinds of euphoria of being in cloud nine when I met him.
I meant, he's so wonderful to be with and I wholeheartedly fall for him. He's charismatic, kind
and fun to be with, a lovely man who probably ticked nearly all the boxes and the list goes on ...
Time slide by, and I really fancied him but at the same time I felt helplessly upset too,
to only realized he's such a perfectionist. :(
Yes, he's a perfectionist, and he's particularly concern about my dressing style because
he wants everything to be perfect, as he reckoned his girlfriend, X-tin (me) is a stylish dresser,
who dresser well at all times even when he's not around.
Apparently I am not. As I am being idiosyncratic, my personal style varies from day to day
without being accountable to anyone!
But for many reason, it seemed likewise to him. And the pressure of fulfilling his ''Perfection''
is a killer. I meant, after all no one is deemed perfect in this world, and his nit picking of me having
to dress classy at all times drive me crazy and annoyed me big time!
Because in all honesty, I think attraction comes in many flavours, as I find woman's brain far more important than her dressing sense, as compared to those fashionable bimbo who can't even hold a conversation. No?
Or perhaps, in all relationships feelings faded with time, and the brightness of smiles grows a little
dimmer along with time as well. Maybe he's not that great after all, but then again, neither am I :(
And if this relationship works, it's really amazing, if it's doesn't, just so be it!
Anyway, years of dating with the wrong individual has made me pretty cautious of ''commitment''.
Or perhaps it's seemed rather a scary thing to me, as I often can't handle it well with my emotions.
Well, though with much depressing sigh I still wish to have a good bit of romance dating now,
so I guess I shall enjoy every single bit of ''happy'' moments before it turned sour!