31 January 2008

I put on a lipstick today,  just to take this picture.

Hello people, I think I need a vacation right now,
yes right now, just to figure out where I am heading to?

Arghhhhh... :(

Distressing much, I'm just feeling shitty about having to lose weight,
coz Chinese New Year is just NEXT WEEK...

But then, I'd rather be heavy than to be anorexic.

*Please stuff some cheese down my throat!.


30 January 2008


The world would be much happier if nobody is falling sick.


I m feeling genuinely bored of getting sick all the times,
and I seriously have no idea why I'm stuck with headache,
running rose and sore throat?

Why is this girl so pathetic?


29 January 2008

I've read an article and feel that it's rather meaningful,
and so I'd like to share with you.

Answers to Your Life

Me: Why are we constantly unhappy?

God: Uncertainly is inevitable, but worrying is optional.

Me: But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty...

God: Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.

Me: If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer?

God: Diamond cannot be polished without fiction.
Gold cannot be purified without fire.
Good people go through trials, but don't suffer.
With that experience their life becomes better, not bitter.

Me: You mean to say such experience is useful?

God: Yes. In every term, experience is a hard teacher.
She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.

Me: But still, why should we go through such tests?
Why can't we be free from problems?

God: Problems are purposeful roadblocks offering beneficial
lessons to enhance mental strength. Inner strength comes
from struggles and endurance, not when you are free from problems.

Me: Frankly in the midst of so many problems, we don't know where
we are heading....

God: If you look outside you will not know where you are heading.
Look inside.
Looking outside, you'll dream.
Looking inside, You'll awaken.
Eyes provide sight.
Heart provides insight.

Me: Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt more than
moving in the right direction. What should I do?

God: Success is a measure as decided by others.
Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you.
Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying than knowing you rode
ahead. You work with the compass.
Let others work with the clock.

Me: In tough times, how do you stay motivated?

God: Always look at how far you have come rather than how far
you have to go.
Always count your blessing, not what you are missing.

Me: What surprises you about people?

God: When they suffer they ask, "why me?"
When they prosper, they never ask "why me?"
Everyone wishes to have truth on their side, but few want to be
on the side of the truth.

Me: Sometimes I ask, "Who am I, why am I here?" I can't get
the answer.

God: Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be.
Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here.
Create it.
Life is not a process of discovery, but a process of creation.

Me: How can I get the best of our life?

God: Face your past without regret.
Handle your present with confidence.
Prepare for the future without fear.
How Men Express their Love - my replies

When I was clearing my old mails,
I saw an email titled "How Men Xpress their Love!!!"

Okay, I never thought I'd read something that
so stupid, lame and dumb...

Here it goes....

1. When a man is quiet and is alone, he's
thinking how good you're, he's missing you!!!

Gosh... this is total bullshit okay.
And as far as I know, men only think about having
Sex with us.
That is Fug You!

2. When a man is lying on his bed,
he's thinking deeply why he loves you.

What? Thinking about us again?
Oh pls, give me a break, as I'll guarantee you that,
men only capable of getting more excited about
Fucking us, and which is the best position.

3. When a man hugs you while sleeping,
he's wishing that you belongs to him 4ever.

Haha... Let's face it, nothing last forever!
And so, you do believe in true love?

4. When a man calls you everyday,
he miss you and wants your attention.

Haiz.. this is what pisses me off about Men.
How can a man be possible calls you
Except for the fact that, they need you for Sex.

5. When a man sms you everyday,
he wants you to know he is fine.

This one is inherently stupid because how can a man
sms a woman everyday?
I mean you guys got nothing better to do isit?

If someone sms me everyday,
I'll make sure he can never reach me anymore!
I seriously hate smsing!!!!

I sincerely hope that, I don't scare you off...
And to be honest, I am bored, and that's the reason,
why I m blogging now....

I am just like a clock, that isn't dead yet..
Memories lie well.
A picture of me, hoping this moment last forever...

It's been almost a year since that messy break-up is over for good,
and of course I don't wish to remember the nightmare quantities of
starving, crazy  complaining and ridiculously generous amount
of alcohol.
And for no reason, writing letters to you every 16th of the month,
and though the fact that, " You left me.... and yes, thank you so much".....

28 Jan is a big day for you, and I'll still keep this promise...
............................Happy Birthday to You........................

And if... you're reading this, if only... I am too stubborn or rather
way too proud to admit that I've already Over You!

Thank God... (:


27 January 2008

The most awful night of my life

Do you know how terrifying it is to see someone
dear to you get drunk and punch?

Some time ago, I went to Kallang Leisure park
to meet up with my sister Shermeen, Ivan and Jack.
And yes, pretty much awesome because it's just the four of us.

Well, I was LATE as usual!
And though I was late, I still managed to reach the appointed
destination at about 11.45pm.

However, upon my arrival my sister was already DRUNK!
I meant DEAD drunk!

Ms Shermeen didn't drink much though, however
she was as drunk as a dead FISH, and what's more?

I meant, I doubt anyone can ever imagine how terrible she's,
when she's drunk!

Arghhh much!
And just like what I've expected. :(

First, she scream and started to talking craps to us!
Then she sings in a weird tone, kissing Ivan and
hitting Jack.

Alright, let's just pray that she won't jump and slap me.

In the meantime, I was singing Karen Mok's song.
And she was like saying : "Hey, you're far prettier than Karen Mok"!


Distressing much, I vented my anger on her and throw her
a sentence, " You're fucking hell drunk okay"!
And damn, she said nothing but to stared at me.

Minutes later, I've managed to change my sit with Jack.
While we're happily singing together, my sister came and
a big scene AGAIN!

She was behaving weirdly, like hugging me, and telling me
that men are jerks, and yet Jack likes me, and ask if I've
any liking interest towards Jack?

And when I was drinking with Jack, she was
like taking my alcohol away, and drank the remaining
hard liquor all by herself.

But the most funniest part was, she yelled to Jack
"No Way" and
stared at me utter a funny line saying" I'll support you all the way!
All the Way!
Because I am your sisterrrrrrrrrrr.."

Arghhh....... What the hell is she trying to prove?

She then conclude saying I can't drink much due to the fact
that I am too young?  Too young?

Hello Madam, I am like 23 years old already!
And I seriously think I am a better drinker than her!

This is not the worse, more to come.

The drama queen started to sob endlessly.
Sobbing much, telling Ivan how sad she was !

To be honest, I couldn't tolerate her, because
I can't deny the fact that her crying makes me sick,
and I'm so regretted to meet her!

Later sometimes, she went out of the KTV room,
and with no choice I've to follow her,
since she was so drunk and the fact that I m her sister.

And randomly, out of nowhere she was saying she
felt lost and wanted to go home.. I told her to
wait for her hubby first, but she was like so
angry with me that she punch my left eyes? D:


Without a doubt, I called Ivan to send her home,
but well it ended up they had a big fight in the car!

My sister was like screaming, shouting and pushing
her hubby Ivan, and Jack and me was like the
innocent victims, stoned and stared in blank.

We tried so hard to stop Ivan from pushing her or
even punch her. However, Ivan was too pissed with her,
and he threw her out of his car.

Somehow, I feel sad when I saw how Ivan push my
sister away and wanted to punch her!

I meant, afterall she's still my sister,and was
upset to see her being treated like this,
though somehow or rather she deserve it. :O

Then, I brought my sister home, and yes!
She started ... all over again....


23 January 2008

.I am your brother, your best friend forever

Alright, I shall conclude that Paula is the interesting one!
Look at how she dance below. *faintz*


22 January 2008


21 January 2008

World Class Public Transport!!!!


I was 30 minutes late for work today, and
hey it's not entirely my fault, it's that SMRT fault!

Today as at 6.30 am, our ''World Class Public Transport'',

SMRT was having some technical problem.

It was like
No MRT from Tanah Merah to Pasir Ris!

And we, passengers are like having a disaster,
and the most
sickening part was, the station staffs kept talking
over the PA system, and the announcement was like

I was so pissed with SMRT, and I wonder will they compensate
companies for the lost Man hours ???

Technical fault?
Or some idiots jump into the track AGAIN?


20 January 2008


MEN - Are you my type ?

When it comes to men, I usually have three deciding factors:
Style, Quality & Personality.
However some men are cheap but yet stylish, and like obviously this is OUT.

I personally feel that men are cheap, when they lie about everything and
anything from their background, occupation and education to their social connections,
just for the sake of dating a girl out for dinner
- sad case and this is at least to me,

The word - Flirting

I doubt any women can tolerate her man flirting with another woman
in the open office or behaving intimately infront of them.
Well for me, I wouldn't get jealous of my boyfriend female "Work Buddies"
unless, his work buddies turns into "Sex Buddies".

And so, if my man ever feel that I take him for granted, and that he's trying to hint
or rather prove to me that he has other options by ''showing off'' to me,
then by all means Do IT and so be it!

Case of the Ex
... ...
And if a man for no specific reason, ever scold or blame a woman because
we mentioned about your ex girlfriend, then I suggest you better Fucking

and leave us alone, and get your ass back to that fucking ex.
And for goodness sake...
Men, Please!
Don't ever telling us that you love us, when all you think about is having sex
with our sisters, cousins, friends or even our aunt.
Yes I know, you may not act into it, but you're actually thinking about it!..
I loathe most, when married men taking up with another woman
and saying that they don't want to cheat, but they're slaves to their own biology
and its worst by saying, YOU are supposed to spread the so called "seed"
to as many women as possible, so that YOU can make sure YOUR very own
"species" stay alive.


To be exact, men who cheat is define as cheap!
Alright, guess I m abit too OVER.

For me, I was rather attracted to men who possesed good personality, that is
gentle and nice, patient and understanding, reasonable and yet thoughtful.
And I'd be very touch by my man, if he drive for 2 hours,
just to see me for an hour.
.... ........
Sadly, I presume no man will ever do that to me :(
And evidently, from my personal experience I could never tolerate any man
who scream at me, insanely vent his anger on me or even nags at me!

Also for some reason, I will never allow my man to wear this when
he's out with me.

I mean't, feeling like going out with an ah pek, isn't it?


Sorry, fussy much?

Well basically, men with a standard height of 1.75 would be perfect because
I seriously loathe to date any shottie!

And, I'd love my man to bless with oriental eyes, also the issue of skin colour
is also very important, as I adore men with fairer skin tone.

Lastly, I loathe men that obessed with gyming and own a typical muscular body!
Don't ask me why, it just happen naturally as I seriously loathe that much!

to be continue...

19 January 2008

Babe of the month

Do you love pigs?
I guess, chances are you don't, especially when you are
the kind
of person that conclude
pigs as portly,
smelly & stupid. However, some animal experts
consider pigs are smarter & trainable
than any other
animal like dogs and cats.

I adored pigs...
I remembered when I was younger, I told my mum
that I didn't want to eat pork,
because pigs are adorable
and cute, and then my mum was laughing away and pretty

much agreed with me...

and ya, Putt, I bet you will enjoy it.. since you love "bah kah"
so much..

A sow suckles her piglet....

Swimming race @ Pig Olympics....


Soooo cute, domestic pigs are resting amongst the vegetables...


We are twin!

Putt... stop eating my "bah kah" can?

15 January 2008


09 January 2008


I am green.
Someone who is very stubborn.
I am emotional.
Someone who is proud of being short.
I am royal.
Someone who is wild but yet cautions.
AND... I am still alive

If you want to be my friend..
read me....

Do you think you are a pretty babe?
Haha~ very sensitive...
Probably pretty babe is too big a word for me..
What about I am sweet?

Are you satisfied with yourself?
Satisfied as in?
Anyway, I guess the answer is NO.

I'm lack of confidences.. and too emo..

What's so amazing about you?
I am a TWIN !
Isn't it amazing?

Accessories you usually wear?
I m not into accessories..
But I don't mind to receive it as a present.

The color of your mobile phone?
Dull red.. bored!

Last place you went to?
Tiong Bahru Plaza.
I went there to buy my bra bra.

Last movie you've watch?
"I am Legend".
This film sucks but was glad to watch it
with that someone...

Last person you were out with?
My twin

The most exciting things to do?
Sex in a theatre?
I guess its the most daring and exciting things to do for now..

Ever thought of robbing a bank?

What are you feeling now?
Give me some wings please..

What's the most important thing in your room?
I can't blog without my pc...

Movie you want to watch?
I guess its a matter of who you are watching with...

What's your definition of "Life"?
I think "Life" is a long process of getting tired, don't you agree?
Please agree with me ...

Then what's your reason for living?
I was forced to...
If it wasn't my twin who stop me, I guessed I'd have been..

Any piercings?
Yap 1 on left earlobe...
2 on right earlobe....

Think of the last time you were angry/pissed/upset?
I cant remember...
As you can see, I get pissed and upset most of the times...

Do you hate someone at the moment?
Maybe myself.
Or maybe its YOU?
I really don't know...

Do you believe everything happens for a reason?
I do believe...

You will die in three minutes.
No one...
Currently, I can't think of anyone yet..

What is more difficult:
To let go everything or forget what happened?
I guess.. to forget what happened?
You see, forgetting is hard...

If you could do anything OR wish anything,
what would it be?
I wish I could turn back the time...

You can have one of the following two things:
trust or love?
Needless to say... L.O.V.E.
But they said, without trust, you can't have love..

Romantic love, when was the last time
you told someone you loved them?

Dec 07 - Ryan.
Thats really very silly of me.

Are you good at hiding your feelings?
The answer is NO.
My facial expression and behaviour will show everything...
and why should I?
I'll just blog it out...

The most romantic gift?
I love Roses.
Get it?
Sent me roses on Valentine day ok?

Have you danced with your loved ones before?
Shall we dance?

One song to describe a heartbreak?
"Superwoman" by cao ge.
It reminds me of...

Name a song that's meaningful to you?
"Huo lai" by liu luo ying..
It reminds me of my first love...

What would be harder for you,
to tell someone you love them
or that you do not love them back?
To tell someone I don't love them.
I don't wish to hurt people, just like
I don't wish them to hurt me too..

One thing you totally regret doing/done recently?
To confess my feelings with that someone.
Yes, don't ask me why, but was totally regret by telling him
that I actually fall for him....

Imagine. It is a dark night, you are alone,
it is raining outside, you hear someone
walking around outside your window.
WHO do you wish was there with you?

My mum

Would you give a homeless person CPR?
Hell no.. even he's going to die...

What things would be the
hardest thing for you to give up?
Blogging... haha~

Would you or have you ever
blackmailed someone?
What do you think?
hmmm... maybe blackmailed my sister?
Since she's bloody rich... lol

Would u sleep with someone if u had the chance?
It depends...

Are you old fashioned?
haha... maybe...
What do you think?

Are you the kind of friend that
you would want to have as a friend?

I'll let you decide..

If you have 3 months to live:

Do you tell anyone or everyone you are going to die?
Yes, I will definitely tell the whole world except him.

What do you do with your remaining days?
Bungee jump off grand canyon.

Would you be afraid?
No, coz my life sucks anyway...

Song playing at the moment?
"Beautiful girl"

Do people like you?
No, people hatred me, especially my boss.

What will you be doing tomorrow?

What do you wish to happen now?
Strike TOTO.

Last time you ate pizza?
No pizza for me, thanks!
Didn't I mention that I detest bread and porridge?

Who is the person you want to see right now?

Do you think you're OK?
Seriously no...

06 January 2008

I am Tired, Worried & I need Diet!

I am tired.
Tired because running just tires me out.

And I realised I've not been excising for months...
Now, I can feel my muscles turning into fats,

while fat cells are multiplying even faster than
I can imagine.

"Diet" is the word for me!!!

From now on, no stocking up on high-carbohydrate
say good-bye to potato chips, ice creams,
and chocolates.

My target weight for the month of Jan :
40kg - its achievable

Okay, lets talk about my study progress.
I've just finish memorizing Stacy Adams' Equity
Theory and
Machiavellian theory, Perception and
Stress management, but seems like lots more to go...

Just received a message from my classmates
saying he's not going to sleep tonight?

Gosh... not sleeping just for the sake of memorising
those notes? This is crazy man!

I mean, the exam start at about 2 pm in the afternoon,
and I guess by waking up slightly early the next day

to revise the whole loads of chapters shouldn't be a problem
for anyone, and why the bothers to burn mid-night oil?

Well, he really makes me worried about my exam now,
because I so wanna get an A for this paper!

Alright, back to study...

Father Of Who - joke of the day

A man walk into a supermarket and
notices a beautiful woman staring at him.

She stares for quite some time,
so finally the man asked "Do I know you?"

The woman answers :
"I think you are the father of one of my kids".

The man thinks for a minute then
realizes this kid she is talking about
must be the result of the one and only
time he ever cheated on his wife.

So he says to the woman "are you the
stripper that was at my best friend's
bachelor party about 5 years ago?"
"You know, the one I had sex
with on the pool table while your
friend spanked my bare ass with a whip?"

The woman look at him horrified and says:
"No, I'm your son's teacher".

-dumb man

05 January 2008


03 January 2008

What's your conclusion....

Have u ever loved someone and
that he had absolutely no idea whatsoever?

That's a lie!

"Don't jump into conclusion, as you may fall flat on your face".

But.. whats your conclusion?

I know, its hard to say the exact truth, even about my own
immediate feelings, but I did yesterday.

You might be thinking, my definition of "Love" seems
to be
strange.. but I know its more than just a feeling.

Its like, I miss him all the times..
Whenever my phone rings, I pray to god its him..

Well you can call it "Madness", but I call it "Love"!
Crush??? I don't know.. really.. but crushes are horrible!!!

Okay, imagine - why does a person even get up in the

morning and call you to wake up and study?
Isn't it obvious enough that... he likes you?

Its like when you like someone, you just want to be near him,
talk to him, or even share your jokes with him and maybe
getting nervous whenever he look at you?
Anyway, I just think that I m extremely ridiculous...

Most of the times I wondered, could it be my abrupt
behavior or unpredictable temper that push away my suitors?

As you can see, I do have a pleasant face.
And if any man would be a fool not to have me,
then why the hell I m still single!!!
Anyway, I feel that my life is so stupid,
and that I really cant stand it!!!

I m feeling like a foolish or rather dumb woman
seeks happiness in the distance.... and that
I need to be love...
Or maybe I just need to be disciplined, and
not forgetting to stabilize my emotions first..

V day coming...

What's your conclusion?

01 January 2008

Happy New year!
Hope you guys enjoy yesterday...

While I m busying preparing for my exam
tomorrow.. :(

F*** sianz~