A virgin's diary
This year seems to be a rocky year
for me, mainly due to the insecurities
and probably moodiness?
Okay, I don't deny I feel weak and brittle
when I was not in a good mood or
encountered problems like
back-stabbings, betrayals or even
misunderstandings among colleagues.
Then, I realised I cant handle difficult situations,
and ya I agreed, I'm so impatient with others.
But I really cant tolerate when nasty people try
to speak ill of me and getting me into trouble.
It seems to me that, they're trying to test my
patience or maybe trying to antagonize me?
Yes I knew, when problems are severe,
try to be diplomatic and tactful in the sense that
avoid conflicts with others as much as possible,
even others are trying really hard to irritates me.
And though, explaining or maybe convincing others,
rather then bulldozing my way through will definitely
makes things better, but too bad.. this is never me.
The reason is, I just cant show how gracious I am by being
so fake that smiling it off, and pretend nothing had happen.
Conclusion is, I hatred office politics and too many
power struggles, and indeed I m a difficult person. lol
Recently, I seems to have lots of weird thoughts.
Well, that could be I am a weird person,
that going through a weird stage in my life.
First, as I mentioned in my earlier post,
I always feel that yesterday was better
than today..and that everyone seems to
treat me like an alien.
And frequently, I felt lost and confused,
angry, pissed off or even annoyed by those
small little things..
I cant help but wonder,
am I a compulsive depresser?
Why did I end up this way? Oh my...