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My thoughts...

When I was much younger,
I used to admire intelligent people.

As I grow older, I admire kind people,
perhaps that’s the reason why I was so in
love with him?

So where should I start?

After reading my blog entry,
some of my friends came and ask me,
“What happen to you, you sound really sad here”?

Well, is that true?
Sorry to make you guys worry.
I’m perfectly fine here.

I mean, I felt so much better now,
though there are times when I'll still miss him.

Well, I don’t deny the fact that I will miss him
when something really good happens
or something troubling me, because in all
honestly, he's still the one who understands
me perfectly.

Frankly speaking, I never stop loving him.
Probably I just learn how to live without him,
as I know fairly well I can’t go back to him,
and it will never be the same anymore.

But you see, I have so many memories with him,
so many things to look back on, and I learned
and gained so much from him, though I hated him
sometimes when he makes me cry.

So I guess, its a natural thing to miss him times
after times.

Very often, I feel I was haunted by the purposelessness
of my life, and was trying so hard to find a new content in it.
Then I realise that the past can never be changed.

And I knew zillion of words can never bring him back
to me anymore, let alone my tears.

Many says, being strong means being able to let go?

Well, from this relationship, I've learnt a good lesson
that giving someone all your love is never an assurance
that they'll love you back!

Just dont expect more love in return, and that's about it.

Well, I guess maybe God really really want me to
meet a few more wrong ones, before meeting the
right one, so that I will tend to treasure my precious gift
on a much mature state later.


PS: When the door of my happiness closes, another opens,
however it was me who took so long to realize that I was
actually given a chance to open a new door ...
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